I am feeling lost

We are moving soon, and everything is happening so fast. But, at the same time, it feels as though my life has stopped since the day my mom died. That I have not really started moving again.

I am uncertain about my identity at the moment. I feel like I don’t really know myself right now, which is driving me crazy because I am good at knowing who I am and where I am at.

Instead I am in limbo, and completely uncertain.

Part of me feels like the world is telling me that I should be healed already, but I know that is just paranoia. I hope it is at any rate.

I never thought that this event would be so traumatic and defining. But I guess the thing is you can’t know how something like this is going to affect you until it happens.

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