One of the things that people keep telling me is that any wrong that I did towards my mom has been forgiven on her death. And part of me wants to scream at them: BUT HOW DO I FORGIVE HER?
How do I let go of all of the hurts and wounds that she inflicted on me. And some of the things that my mom did were pretty terrible.
I don’t know how to just let go of that hurt…and it is not exactly something that I am going to discuss with my family at the moment.
My mom was a good woman…she also abused me. People are like that, more than a single thing…more nuanced than we can ever begin to express or understand.
I don’t want to carry around this burden of anger and hurt…but I don’t know how to just let it go.
Soundtrack to this post: Metallica, “The Unforgiven”