It’s been raining today…with the sound of raindrops drumming on the rooftop. Ordinarily, I find the sound soothing and comforting. (I have always loved thunderstorms, I have since I was a child). But today I am jealous of the sky. Jealous of the way it can just let all of those stormy emotions out.
For me, at the moment, I am not feeling things completely at the moment. I am holding back and stuck in painful limbo.
Remembering being invisible, being invisible… remembering being silent and silenced. Wandering who the hell am I? Pulling snatches of me out of the ether, wandering about who I am…who I can become.
Wandering if I can ever stop being this emotional wreck.